I will do the work. To connect with and wake my body back up even though I kinda fell apart again.  I WILL pay the price, each and every time, because that is my reality.  I’d rather do it than to fall apart more.  I *know now* that it works.  That I get stronger.  That my body feels more capable and that it is there for me.  That my life and existence become more expressive, and that it feels really good, and is a source of pleasure.