I’m a beginner singer/songwriter. Zero musical background or possibility, but it just sorta… happened. One mega-huge-feeling baby step at a time. Because…it feels good to do it. I enjoy it. And thinking about the future or purpose of it is irrelevant and not necessary. So I’ve written a handful of songs now, that originate from…
Tag: health
Setbacks
I will do the work. To connect with and wake my body back up even though I kinda fell apart again. I WILL pay the price, each and every time, because that is my reality. I’d rather do it than to fall apart more. I *know now* that it works. That I get stronger. That my body feels more capable and that it is there for me. That my life and existence become more expressive, and that it feels really good, and is a source of pleasure.
A Hundred Days with No Elephants
I’m on day 100. A hundred days without alcohol. When I set out, this milestone would have been super-duper proud enoughness. Goal complete. So, I *could* resume drinking at this point…
But why would I *want* to?
The Grey Area of Alcohol Use
Alcohol in moderation. The most socially-accepted drug ever.
There is a true stigma associated with being an “alcoholic”, yet consuming alcohol under the vague external metrics of “moderation” is ultra-approved of… if not literally expected.
Seeing the Elephant
To really see your elephant, you gotta spend time looking. Objectively looking. Examine the elephant, and the rationalizations that keep it hidden.
Having a Party Without the Elephant
If continuing to consume alcohol when I try so hard to preserve my health is the elephant in my health room, then throwing a party and deciding *not* to drink must be my first party without that elephant hanging around.
Giving Up Yet One More Thing
Despite all my progress and improvements into lower levels of “successful moderation”, it was still to much. My body has continued to tell me so. But when you have already given up so many mainstream things, how do you give up another big one?
Face the Realities
When it comes to addictions, there seems to be no “moderation” that is also at peace.
Challenges Give Us Gifts
Illness can be a gift that reminds us what to appreciate and accept about our bodies, rather than to always judge as not good enough.
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